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2004-09-28 - 12:33 a.m. - not quite there yet cd release parties in hollywood are weird. you cant really hold anyone's stare for very long because it's too tempting to glance around the room every few seconds, to see who's walking by, who's coming in, who's leaving, who's famous. even i have to do it. it's impossible not to. everyone wants to know SOMEONE, at a cd release party in hollywood. so congratulations to the used. i left early and told andy to lie to anyone who asked where i was, and tell them i was mingling somewhere on the other side of the room. hopefully he'll stick to the plan, because then im officially a phantom (and ive always wanted to be a phantom). i drove home feeling a little overwhelmed. i had a lot of friends in there, a lot of people who know my name and were happy to see me, and only a couple of enemies--but mostly i had the feeling that i wasnt enough of a somebody, for my own taste, to be there. someday i'll matter... someday i'll matter to every single person in that room. just you wait and see. |