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2004-06-15 - 5:27 p.m. - this is life as it will be not that this is a self realizing moment or anything, but i am reminded yet again of the bizarre reactions i have to things which most other people would consider great. like, whenever something good happens to me, i go into a 3- to 562-day self-doubting phase in which i suddenly become extremely paranoid about the good thing, extremely depressed about my ability to handle the good thing, and extremely freaked out of my mind about the change that is involved with the good thing. one minute youre satisfied with staying home during the summer and running the office and potentially starting a side project or managing a really great band: the next minute youre going to work on the entire warped tour and leave in 7 days. hmmm |